My apologies ( actually I don't even know who I'm talking to ) for not being able to post often.
School has been catching up to me lately. Lots of work and fyp is filling every pocket of free time I have. Its 11 pm and I just got home from helping a friend resolve some com issues.
Note to myself: fix chi koon mac asap. I think I shall queue it higher in my list of priorities.
let me reveal my list now.
1. Pray before sleep
2. Drink ribena
3. Final year project
4. Fix chi koon mac
okay that should do it.
Mind kinda blank, I shall just list out random things that comes to my mind now.
1. my new desktop (after spring cleaning)
I really don't know why I used this wallpaper but I'm just too sleepy to change.
I'm also too sleepy to write anything else here....
goodnight all have a great week(end) <33333
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Hellooo
Its the fourth day since school has started. It's really been tiring the past few days. Haven't got the time to really do much stuff on the computer.
So let me give you an idea of how my timetable looks like.
Day Time
Monday 12 to 5
Tuesday 8 to 5
Wednesday 8 to 12
Thursday 8 to 5
Friday 8 to 12
But you know what really. Even though this sem is so packed. So much projects to do and fyp and studying (i started studying yesterday can you imagine)
I'm so happy inside. Like sometimes this fountain of hope in me thats overflowing. I don't feel that stressed out at all. And I am enjoying school.
And mind you it doesn't mean I don't get nasty encounters anymore. I just had one today with a rude lab technician. But I really can't stay angry for long.
and all this is because I just feel his presence through the day.
Okay! I shall stop here for today. Gonna read some stuff and then go to bed. Sat is a big day I'm supposed to share a testimony and I don't know what to say. Gotta prayyyyy
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Man today has been a great day for me.
Went to malaysia in the morning. Bought clam chowder in the can and ate my candy floss ice cream. I buy the most random things from there...
Cell has been wonderful. One word to sum up how I was feeling today would be family. Man seeing kenneth cry like that really melted me...........
ultimately we're all one big family :)
Friday, October 16, 2009
Things are fine now. I've resolved some issues and to be honest, I'm stronger now.
I believe I'll find more answers tomorrow. Just woke up from a refreshing sleep too (at 6:33 pm hahaha).
And I give thanks to the Lord for preserving me
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
There's something wrong with my blogger. Only one white box and the publish post button below. So no pictures today.
Even better, my blogger auto clears the text for me. I typing this in notepad now. My day has really been horrid.
Let me start with my nightmare.
Last night I really had a terrible nightmare. I dreamt that there was a ghost flying outside my house. Circling my house trying to get in. Seriously I can see the features and everything very clearly its bringing the chills to my bones.
There were three of them somemore. I remember my mother was crying very badly. My father told us to stay at home he needed to go to work.
You know what is the thing about this dream. I kept saying Jesus Jesus. This is the first time in any of my dreams I said Jesus.
Normally after a nightmare in the morning I will think "wah why I never pray maybe something would happen."
First time. I kept repeating it the entire nightmare.
Then I remember the ghost breaking into the house, shattering my windows. I know right ghost can just fly in I also don't know why.
They started to disturb me flying very close to me trying to scare me. Then I started praying in tongues believing that they will go away.
When I prayed I saw them being afraid and they couldn't touch me. But they were still hanging around.
Then I remembered trying to sms three people, Kenneth, Kevin and chi koon. I remembered trying very hard to type but somehow I just couldn't do it.
Then I called kenneth on my handphone and he replied in a sleepy voice saying that he was going to school by mrt but not yet go.
I ask him if he can come and help me he said okay. I ask him come to my house because I don't dare go out he laughed and said sure man no problem.
Then the ghost started to be able to enter my front door.
I jumped out and took a bamboo pole outside and broke in into half and tried to fight back.
I slipped and I fell all the way to the ground floor. Even when I was falling I kept saying Jesus Jesus help me and before I hit the ground I woke up.
Man I woke up with my mouth dry. Either from breathing too fast or from saying out words in my nightmare.
I'm very sure this is a spiritual attack but God let it happen for a reason. Something He wants to show to me. I'm just going to spend the day praying today.
And I had a terrible driving experience today. My instructor ask me to ram a car from the side. For real.
PRESERVE ME LORD I'M SCARED
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Its actually a song by jesus culture. Very nice.
I spent my saturday doing abit of community work. Helped by distributing stuff and talking to people. I spent 45 minutes talking to a 59 year old man living in a 1 room flat. Something I noticed, people need to be needed. They need to be wanted by somebody and if you take that away things start to get weary.
Its a chain reaction, this fatherless nation. I'll talk about it another time.
So we really talked about everything. I don't know if its something about my face but people seem to trust me so I guess thats why he mentioned everything. We even talked about fishing.
Oh yes we conversed in chinese. You be must thinking OMG THAT WAS DIFFICULT. But I could reply him and he understood what I was talking about. Must be the prayer I said before talking to him =D.
He believes that he cannot go to a church because his gods will strike him down and he will die. He mentioned something about the yang being higher then his. I told him I wouldn't force him I just wanted to talk.
He also said other church people had spoken to him before. And they told him very harshly (or so he said) that there is no such thing. I guess the firmness they had was impressive but it left such a mark on him that he has more or less shut his heart.
Let you tell you the heart of old people are shut very close. Really need alot of faith and prayer and really need the touch of God before anything can happen.
The amazing thing when I left that place was I didn't leave discouraged and I didn't leave feeling "man its impossible....."
I think its good because it reflects that I'm starting to learn to trust.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
I tried to sleep at 2 30 plus. But I just couldn't fall asleep. My eyelids were heavy, but there was some sort of fear in my heart. Very real and I really knew something was wrong.
I started praying and praising the Lord and tried to shake off the feeling. Prayed for angels to protect me (heh I believe in angels man) I started to say "God are you listening to me. I know you're there I want to know that you're listening to me." I still didn't feel peace at all. It was getting worst by the second. So I got up and switched on the com.
I started singing out loud as I sat at my com, wondering what to do. Tuned in to my favourite (and only) christian radio, 1faithfm.com.
And they were playing the very song I was singing. I don't think any of this is a coincidence. And I don't think the peace of mind I am experiencing right now is false.
I'm just remembering how I promised Him I'd submit every of my problems to him and I was reminded again tonight in a way I won't mention.
prayer is real and I will never forget that
(8) sha la la
12:24 AMHeyyyy its been two days since I last posted. Been a little busy with my project and my com was giving a little bit of problems.
My facebook got hit by a virus so being the responsible person I am (heh), I deactivated it for now. So other people won't get affected by the virus.
So I have been scanning my com with an anti virus, nothing found so far. Actually I dislike anti virus. They take up so much memory and lags everything up. You'll be surprised to know that I have been using this laptop since I was in secondary 3.
384 mb of ram and the processor is slow. But I've been treating it well so its still serving me fine. I think my patience threshold increased by a lot thanks to the laptop.
Alright thats all for today I'll post something personal that happened to me tomorrow!
ADIOS AMIGOS
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
7 wonders of the world
1:55 AMSo there is an official list of the 7 wonders of the world. Its updated almost every year.
This is my list of the 7 world wonders.
1. Takoyaki
2. Pizza Hut drumlets
3. Long John Silver
4. Tori Q
5. Fan Choy from fc 4
6. Candy Floss flavoured ice cream from baskin robbins
7. red bull
I know the 7 world wonders are places or locations. But I just decided at the spur of the moment to change them to food.
Also at this very same spur of the moment, I listed 7 of my favourite items.
I guess this shows how bad my taste is and also how much junk food I like to eat.
AHA BUT YOU SEE I GET TO WRITE WHATEVER I WANT HERE.
cheers to the 7 world wonders
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
oh noes
1:26 AMOh noooooooooo my facebook kena virus..
Just when I was talking about viruses and how they worked to my friends. I got one in the night. Actually I'm sure its just some quiz or application I used and it went crazy. But just as a precaution I deactivated my account for now.
I don't want someone coming up to me saying "JEREMYYYYYYYYY MY COMPUTER GOT VIRUS YOUR FAULT I CLICK ON YOUR LINKKKKKK."
You know what's funny, I spelt my name wrongly back there. I had to backspace and retype. I SPELT MY NAME WRONGLY AND IT NOT BECAUSE I TYPED TOO FAST.
I'm getting on with age...
today I spent the day moving around. From here to Eunos then to parkway then back home again then to school then to turf city.
yw was driving and I understood the pains of driving manual. To all those saying MANUAL IS FASTER THEN AUTO or MANUAL IS STILL THE BEST
get over it..
auto is the technological advancement of manual. its like saying I don't believe in writing emails I'll stick to letters. Okay bad example but you know my point...
anyway that isn't the point. On the bus ride back (of 1h30min), it was enjoyable. You know how some people will say they took the bus and plugged in they're ipods and they go on a magical ride spending time just alone thinking and resolved many things within themselves alone blah blah blahh.
I just plugged in listening to christian songs (which are unfortunately illegal because I haven't bought any cds. Friend send them to me. Confession)
and was simply thinking. We went past little india and even the scent didn't affect me. Like I didn't even know I was there until I saw the mrt station which said LITTLE INDIA.
(i'm not racist come on you know i got good friends who are indians, I'm just stating factual information........)
and after that we went past geylang and once again it didn't affect me. No it doesn't mean that the place used to affect me.
Its just that I paid little attention to where I was, which is kind of surprising because I thought I would.
ahhhhhhhhhh long story short I like taking long bus rides after accomplishing something. And I really get a lot of chance to do that. My train trips to and fro from my school is one of them.
I use this time as recollection points. Of what I have done the previous day (haha actually hardly, you all know I got bad memory) Maybe in the day at most.
And things that really struck me during the week. (cell is one for sure, service is another) And I'll try my best to recall everything I have heard to during the week. Filtering things as we go.
thought process is interesting. Try it out sometime. As the wise people say "Every action starts with a thought". You should really start controlling your thoughts.
oh yeah a picture to end this post
" LOCK ON TO YOUR HEART "
Sunday, October 4, 2009
MAN I WATCHED THIS WHEN I WAS YOUNG. Joseph and the Amazing Technicolored Dreamcoat. brings back memories mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
Saturday, October 3, 2009
its the weekends!
8:12 PMhave a great weekend everybody, I'll be on my own private journey with him :D
Friday, October 2, 2009
Just got home! Met up with some guys from the cell. Had a great time sharing. Man its meetings like these that puts things into perspective.
Actually to be honest, I don't have much to do on the computer nowadays.
I've stopped downloading so there goes my anime watching. Even reading manga I've stopped. I guess I'll just go online for awhile in case anyone's looking for me and then I'm off.
Gonna charge my hp and then go to bed.
oyasumi~~~